18th March 2013 (Monday)
No Tim again this week. He was doing a heavy cold, came in handy for people to send healing to later.
Public praying was something that used to terrify me, but after the last time Mary made us do one (the day me and Tim turned up on our own) it lost its fear. One member was quickly volunteered by Mary to start and we went round in a circle from her. That made me third, and bought me enough time to think of something to say.
Earlier that day I’d had a sharp reminder that my life here is not about ‘getting’ but about giving, about being of service to others. There’s a bit in the Course in Miracles that says something like, ‘only what I’m not giving am I not getting.’ So after asking God to join us and giving thanks for the fact that we could meet today, I asked that we all be reminded of our service role, and that the circle be used for the service of all in it and the wider world. There were short, medium and long prayers, all very expressive and effective.
The next exercise was a guided meditation from a CD in which we were led to an old man in a garden. We had to ask him a question concerning an issue we were facing, and listen carefully to his answer.
I asked about a relationship and whether it was time to terminate contact with a person. The old man answered that when we had learned all we need to from each other the contact would naturally cease.
The next exercise was to pick a card from a tray on which was written one word. We then had to try and figure out what, if anything, the word was trying to tell us about an issue or issues going on in our lives. I pulled GRACE, and inwardly groaned.
Grace is one of those words that I’ve never understood the meaning of, not like love or peace or joy or integrity. Grace is a complete mystery to me, and I said so. Mary offered a definition. That it was doing the right thing even if you know the other person is being a right s—t. If you know better then do better, by recognising that the other person may not be functioning at your level of development.
I instantly found a situation where I could apply that definition, one that had been causing me a bit of grief for few weeks. I thought about how it would be if I approached the situation from a point of love than from judgment self-righteous indignation, and instantly felt more at peace. My Course in Miracles lesson for the day incidentally was ‘I am entitled to miracles.’ And a miracle is a change of mind. I felt as though one had happened there. I had seen a situation differently and it brought peace.
Next Mary asked us to think about a missing member who couldn’t be with us but had suggested that we asked our spirit guides to show us his medical condition. We sat silently with closed eyes for about five minutes. There were no two answers the same, so if we were all right he must be riddled with complaints. I got ‘blood condition, possibly anaemia’. Turned out he has a bladder infection; someone got ‘gall’, so I guess he was the closest.
We then closed by holding hands in a circle, bringing down white healing energy and sending it around the group. Very similar to my very first circle where I saw it in the crystal ball before it happened. We asked for it to be sent out to Tim and everyone else in the prayer book, and then grounded the energy into the earth to help with the earth’s healing.
I think finishing exactly on time was so novel that someone asked if we could have some healing. It was two on one healing. One person sat in a chair, one stood behind with hand on shoulder and one sat in front and placed hands where suggested by the sitter.
I was so tired I was happy to be the first in my group of three. I asked for my wrists to be held as I still have one slightly swollen. It was beautifully soothing, I saw lots of pink light, and I could have happily gone to sleep. Alas no, as it was soon my turn to be healer. I picked up shoulder pain in one partner and back of the legs issues in another. Both confirmed these as accurate. I felt both in my body.
It was a lovely, relaxed session.
I looked up grace when I got home. Here’s a definition I like.
‘The exercise of love, kindness, mercy, favour, disposition to benefit or serve another.’
What about you, what does grace mean to you?
March 21, 2013 at 8:01 pm
Really want to thank you for this particular post. I`ve been having a little difficulty with a friend recently and been asking Spirit on how to handle it for the best (and highest) good. Obviously with GRACE!! (This could be tricky as I haven`t felt very forgiving…I`ve had the right hump too…and when I looked up an Edgar Cayce site today it stressed the importance of forgiveness and the blessing of GRACE. Ahhhh). Thanks for the timely post. Love Sand xxx
March 22, 2013 at 2:07 am
I have to remind myself frequently that forgiveness is for me. It will make ME feel better, not let the other person off the hook. And I have to do this even (on the rare occasions) when I want to poke their eyes out and throw them out to sea. Hope you’re not too shocked that I have these moments – Haha.
March 21, 2013 at 10:14 pm
Hi Predencia. Timely writing as always I aspire to grace a place where I know I can live out my purpose. Its been a tricky few weeks with my health and relationship with food creating turmoil. I have been asking God to help me understand why and what I should do and I just wanted to say thank you because mary and yourself hit it on the head. ‘If you know better do better’ and as a course of miracles reminds us giving also includes giving to ourselves. Time for some kindness me thinks. Sorry I have rambled on but its helped me .
March 22, 2013 at 2:03 am
It’s really good to hear from you Jenny. What always amazes me is how often I share something that I think I’m the only one struggling with only to find that others are too. I do really believe our Higher Selves know best, and will guide us if we listen and move ourselves out of the way. Sometimes I find that I get a partial answer and want to say, ‘OK thanks. I can take over from here.’ Whereas, if I’d held still a little longer, not be so eager to rush ahead with my own half-baked ideas life would flow so much more easily.
The other thing I’ve noticed that I have to let go off, is trying to have the answers for others, and feeling that I’ve let them down if I don’t. As you know I like to practice what I preach, but sometimes I do that to the detriment of my own health. I have to have these little reminders that things will unfold in their own time. I don’t have to rush anything, just show up and be willing. Oh yes, and give myself some of the nurturing I’m always suggesting to and offering others.
My advice would be to hand it over to your Higher Self and trust that its taken care of. Don’t keep taking it back.