Thursday 18th July 2013
Another small group, 3 men and two women but so different to last week. We were in the log cabin again, but began our first relaxation meditation not long after 7.30.
Just as I closed my eyes to begin I saw two cats playing on the floor to the left of me.
As I’d mentioned to Greg that I was going on a shamanic workshop at the weekend he said he’d do a shamanic journey with us to meet our power animals. He’d very generously offered to help me choose a stone from the garden that would be suitable to take with me on the course. He thought the one I’d chosen was too big (not palm size as requested by the course but more something that could be used as a lethal weapon). He said it was likely to be the first of 13 alter stones if I decided to pursue a shamanic path therefore a smaller would be better.
He told us some of the basic differences between shamanism and spiritualism, but basically said there was a lot of overlap. He then took up on a shamanic journey (without the drums) to meet out power animals.
He ask us to climb up a hill and then down the other side.
‘Stop and look back at how far you’ve come,’ he said.
I was about half way down. He told us to look across the landscape to an island shrouded in mist. We were heading for the island but first we had to go through the woods that were directly in front of us.
‘Stand still and wait for a sign to show you which direction to go in,’ he said.
I waited. A coconut fell off a tree and rolled to my left. (What’s a coconut tree doing in a British woods!!!) Anyway, no time to think about it as we were being instructed that we had now come to a clearing where there was a lake and a ceremonial robe. We had to put it on.
There were seven robes on the ground in front of me, one in each colour of the rainbow. I had an internal tussle between the yellow and the purple one, but finally choose the purple.
‘Step into the lake,’ Greg instructed us, ‘and get into the canoe which you can now see.’
Wet and dripping I got in, marvelling at how things can just materialise in front of your very eyes in meditation.
We had to row across to the island, get out and choose between one of three paths, a wood, a river and a beach.
I really wanted to follow the river but found myself pulled to the beach.
‘Sit on a rock or a log. Close your eyes and wait for your power animal to come to you,’ he said. ‘Be aware that it could be huge like an elephant or tiny like a wren, or even an ant. When you feel your animal’s presence open your eyes and look at it.’
Even while Greg was still speaking I saw, in my mind’s eye, a sleek and graceful black jaguar walking down the beach towards me. When I opened my eyes I found myself looking deep into its eyes. His face was only inches away from me, but I felt no fear. In fact I felt the opposite, I felt completely safe.
‘Walk with your power animal,’ Greg told us.
As we began walking along the beach I could feel his power and knew he could and would protect me from anything.
‘Ask your power animal if it has a message for you,’ Greg said.
I waited for the jaguar to say something to me. When he spoke to me it was telepathically.
‘You’re stronger than you believe. You’re faster than you know. Never fear those who fear you.’ His voice was strong but soothing, and I was about to ask what he meant by ‘never fear those who fear you’, when Greg said,
‘You come to a river and have to get back into the boat.’
I was feeling a little sad that I had to leave but perked up when Greg said, ‘Your power animal gets in with you and you paddle back to the other side. When you get there get out of the canoe and immerse yourself into the water before coming back into the room.’
I reflected on my messages while the first person shared her journey. She too had seen a black jaguar, but had also had a bear and a bird. I’d look up Jaguar in my Power Animal pack with I got home.
The first two parts of my message made sense to me, but why would I fear those who fear me?
Greg said he felt it was about letting go of my fears, not just learning how to control them but letting go of them completely, because I had nothing to fear.
I mentioned the cats.
‘Was one of them black,’ he asked.
‘Yes,’ I replied wondering if he’d seen them too.
‘They are often in here,’ he said. They used to live here and their spirits obviously come back from time to time to visit.
‘Must be a thing with cats tonight,’ I joked.
Because three of us had unanswered questions from the meditation Greg suggested doing ten minute silent meditation to ask for answers. One was ‘Why am I constantly hot?’ Another ‘Why am I always rocking?’ A third was ‘How do I step into my power?’ and mine was ‘How do I get rid of my fear?’
Within minutes I felt a tremendous tingling in my back. It went on for some time. I began to wonder if it meant ‘don’t look back’ or ‘learn from the past’ or ‘don’t hold on to past hurts.’ I was still trying to work it out when Greg called us back.
One of the women said that tingling in the back is usually an indication that our angelic wings are being fitted, or if already fitted being adjusted, often being made bigger.
Greg thought it was about not focusing on the past, but looking to the future.
I’m still not sure. Do you have any other suggestions???